I must say the talk that has most touched me was by Elder M Russell Ballard on "Mothers and Daughters." Being both now, this really effected me in ways I don't think it could had I just been a daughter. Elder Ballard urged us women to look to our mothers as our models and mentors and I remember at one time thinking there wasn't anything I wanted to learn from her, because I didn't understand why she did the things she did. I remember thinking she was silly, over protective, and "controlling", and that she was trying to live her life through me. And as Elder Ballard said, "as you approach the time for marriage and young motherhood, she will be your greatest source of wisdom. No other person can love you the same way she does." You know, that's so true. The minute I realized I was getting married and then once again when I was becoming a mother I appreciated her the way I should have my entire life, and I turned to her as I should have done more often. I now understand why my mom did as she did, and I find myself following her example, because it worked, it was best, she wanted the best for me and for me to be better and have a better life, when as a Kid I swore I would be nothing like her, and I now find myself striving to be the mother she was to me, to be the daughter of God she has shown me how to be, to be wife I should be. Elder Ballard also said, "Mothers are their daughters first line of defense...A mother-daughter relationship is where a daughter learns how to nurture by being nurtured." I already see this in my girls. When I'm hurt or upset they do to me exactly what I did for them. I can't tell you how sweet and comforting it is to have my daughter come up and hug me, ask me if I'm ok, and give me kiss me better. They already say their own little blessings at meal time, more often than not it's "Dear, thank you, Amen." but it's a prayer and our HF knows it. They get after me if I forget to say one too. I think not only are Mothers a Defense for their daughters but their daughters for them too. Sometimes they put me in my place and I need it. The other day the girls spilled the $10 bottle of fish food on the floor and I went crazy. After I had released my steam Z came up looking kinda scared and said bad mommy no pushing no hitting time out 2 min, because during my rant and grabbed her face and was telling her how wrong her actions were...when in reality it was my actions that were wrong...not only forgetting to lock up the food, but in the way I handled the situation and she actually dragged me to the time out chair. It was quite a humbling experience. I never want my children to be afraid of me, yes I must teach them right from wrong, but there are better ways than that way.
Mom I love you so much. I'm sorry it took about 20 yrs before I appreciated, loved, admired, and sought your advice as I should have. I only hope that I can be 1/2 the mother you are and my kids and I will do good in this world.
Family news... Gummie Bear # 3 is officially due Nov. 24, but is scheduled to be born the 17th, unless it decides to come earlier. I lost 2 lbs this past month which the doctor says is good. It means I'm eating right and being active which will make this pregnancy healthier. I'm losing the weight and gaining baby so eventually our goal is to make the weight plateau so that I'm losing the fat and gaining the baby. Hopefully I'll be able to avoid G. D. again.
Zelda is kinda potty trained. She's doing better each week. It'll still take a very long time though b/c she wants to learn but she's lazy lol. She is talking so much better as well. Each day she's getting better. She's talking in sentences.
Greta is talking better than Zelda most of the time, then again she does have Z as an example too instead of just K.C. and I. She's becoming quite the bully actually. I never thought it'd be her but The markings on Zelda proves otherwise, she likes the "bait and hook" Zelda when K.C. and I are out of the room b/c then we usually think it's Zelda causing the trouble, when it's actually Greta.
K.C. has officially gotten off Probation and it's practically impossible to fire him now unless he does something incredibly stupid. On the 15th marked his First full year since he graduated and was sworn in and working the roads. He loves getting those Drunks and getting them off the road. He also bought a 600$ bike to bike the 15 miles to and from work, he's trying to "get in better shape" and in the end the bike will be cheaper than the Gym memberships we had signed up for and rarely used. It's just to hard to go to a gym with toddlers.
We celebrated our 4 yr Anniversary this month on the 5th, and at the end of the month we are going to go camping in Redwoods State Park. It's the one with the Redwoods so big you can drive through them. I'm very excited to go. I've always wanted to see those. The girls are a bit older than last time we went so maybe it'll be a little bit easier.
Well, thats all I can think of for now! I love you my family! I love getting to ready your spiritual thoughts and whats going on in your life. It helps me feel connected to everyone!
Love, Clara Marie xoxoxoxo
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